Help! I need your advice.


A couple of months ago when the post frequency dropped, I was pulled in every direction under the sun with every free moment filled with big work projects. However, as a consequence, my creativity has taken the hit, and I wonder if this (blog) can once more mediate the space between the uncontrollable and my life. That's why I started it in the first place... We all know creativity is not a given. It has to be flexed and tested and rested in perpetuity. These days, I'm coming back to basics despite the discomfort, considering my camera for 9 years has already given up on me. Plus I’m saving all my extra pennies for my further studies so I'm trimming the extras. And my interests have shifted. I'm trying to figure out what's next.

At the moment, I am trapped in a dilemma.

So far, I still haven't recovered from the latest punches that life has thrown at me. I am stuck between the rules and what I feel is right. Plus, let's be honest, between those two ends of the spectrum, there are a lot of gray areas which just makes it more difficult. I have been told that in order to make right decisions, I must not fear the consequences. Trust my guts, basically. On the other hand, one friend told me that such process is quite a little too inconsiderate. So, in the end, the question remains...

Should I do the right thing for the wrong decision or do the wrong thing for the right decision? 

When I feel pressured and a decision is impossible, when in doubt, I stall. I stall to think, feel or process information relevant to a solution or choice. I have always been the type who believes in "the process" aka if I do my part, everything will soon fall into place. However, recently, I got scared that I may have been playing it a little too safe. In the fear of being wrong, it actually appears like I didn't get to do anything at all. For the past few days I've been trying my best to dissect the scenario and clearly enough, I wouldn't be in this situation had I only been less apprehensive in the first place.

So screw it when people say, "Good things come to those who wait." Because apparently, that does not apply to those who wait too late.

In the mean time, I'll keep it short. I am just trying to find methods on how to look at it in another way so please let me know what you think, regardless if you agree with me or not.

PS: The Office is basically a good reference for all types of situation (!!!)